Poetry Page 2

If Tomorrow Starts Without Me

When tomorrow starts without me and I'm not there to see,

If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today,

While thinking of the many things, we didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me, as much as I love you,

And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too;

But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,

That an angel came and called my name, and took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready, in heaven far above,

And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye

For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for, so much left yet to do.

It seemed almost impossible, that I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad,

I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while,

I'd say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized, that this could never be,

For emptiness and memories, would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things I might miss come tomorrow,

I thought of you, and when I did, my heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home.

When God looked down and smiled at me, from His great golden throne,

He said, "This is eternity, and all I've promised you."

Today your life on earth is past, but here life starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last,

And since each day's the same way there's no longing for the past.

You have been so faithful, so trusting and so true.

Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn't do. But you have been forgiven and now at last you're free.

So won't you come and take my hand and share my life with me.

So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart,

For every time you think of me, I'm right here, in your heart.

COURTNEY SAU

1/23/86 to 2/5/05

We try to get the image of your death out of our minds

to remember you with your smiling face, your heart so very kind

Their actions have caused waves of pain that will ripple throughout time.

They gave no thought to any of us before they committed their crime.

We saw you Friday night, just hours before you died.

Still we see your smiling face and cannot help but cry.

Why did it have to happen to one so special as you

May God now forgive us for the things that we want to do.

We want to hurt them for what they did - do to them what they did to you.

We wish that someone would wake us up and tell us this wasn't true.

We know now that without you, we'll never completely heal.

To hear your voice and see your smile... this simply can't be real.

They took you away from us with a bottle and a knife.

They gave no thought to you or us before they took your life.

Our friends tell us you're in a better place but it doesn't feel that way.

It wasn't time for you to go, please someone, make them pay.

The tears won't stop, the pain won't ease we cannot bring you back.

There is no justice in this world, their souls are cold and black.

They never thought of your family before they hurt you so

They never thought of all your friends, our pain... they'll never know,

We love you and we miss you and we wish you didn't leave

Yet we cannot change what happened, all we can do is grieve.

As long as we are all alive you live on in us.

Your memories are a blessed gift, a very special plus.

Thank you for the friendship and the laughter we did share

Always know we love you. Always know we care.

All of You, Only You

Courtney 1.23.86 - 2.5.05

The scent of flowers brushed past me

The sun warmed my face

A breeze ever so slight

I turned, it was you walking through the lace

Softness falls before me

A sparkle catches my eye

As I come closer I see you

It's your hair falling over your face and your smile

Perfection what is it to me

To know it exists in your form

There is no ugliness, only beauty

Of you it was born

China doll so fragile and small

Pick me up please don't let me fall

Could you have come home and gone to sleep why did you heed the call.

Where are you now

I miss your face, your eyes your smell

nothing compares to you

my eyes begin to swell

You've taken my heart, my hopes and dreams

of you it was all that it seems

come back, please, it's so hard,

the purpose was you

to be with to be near

Your existence was all that was clear.

For Courtney

You had the nicest smile that gave a bright glare,

Even though that you're gone, I feel you right here.

I'm still prayin' I awaken from this nightmare

All over two jealous girls who couldn't fight fair

Since I heard the news, I can't sleep at night.

Toss and turn in my bed and talk to Jesus Christ

Askin why it had to happen ~ she's so nice.

And why the good die young and pay the evil price.

If I had a wish granted, I would kiss ya.

My heart goes out to your parents and your sisters.

I feel empty, starin' at your picture.

All by myself, thinkin damn I'm gonna miss ya.

And it's hard to accept it, it was never expected.

In heaven you were never rejected.

The earth feels your loss, so many people affected.

But GOD saw your GREATNESS so He came and collected

God Bless you Courtney, in our hearts and minds you will forever be,

See you when we get there...

WE LOVE YOU!

i heard about your tragic death

from the one i most love

death has never made much sense to me

i have never experienced losing anyone

until just this year

yours was third wake i had attended

and the one that drew most tears

maybe it was because you were my age

maybe it was the way you were taken away

but whatever it was,

i still think of you every day

i look at my daughter

and i think of your familys pain

i know that without her

i would spend my life in the rain

i'm sure your smile brightened their day

and i know that the place you have

in all of our hearts

is what gets us through today.

you have changed the way i see

the way i talk and the way i love

you have influenced us all in a positive way

you truly were an angel on earth

i just wish God had let you stay

-alicia h

IF I KNEW

If I knew it would be the last time

That I'd see you fall asleep,

I would tuck you in more tightly

and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time

that I'd see you walk out the door,

I would give you a hug and kiss

and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time

I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,

I would video tape each action and word,

so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,

I could spare an extra minute

to stop and say "I love you,"

instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time

I would be there to share your day,

Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,

so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow

to make up for an oversight,

and we always get a second chance

to make everything just right.

There will always be another day

to say "I love you,"

And certainly there's another chance

to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,

and today is all! I get,

I'd like to say how much I love you

and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,

young or old alike,

And today may be the last chance

you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,

why not do it today?

For if tomorrow never comes,

you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time

for a smile, a hug, or a kiss

and you were too busy to grant someone,

what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,

and whisper in their ear,

Tell them how much you love them

and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"

"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."

And if tomorrow never comes,

you'll have no regrets about today.

Island Princess

As I stand here and think today,

I think about what those girls took away.

An island princess,

Standing in the distance in a beautiful white dress.

You always looked perfect never a mess,

Just the same in heaven ,

To forever rest.

As I look at your memorial today,

I think about what those girls took away.

As you were to many other than me.

Courtney we love you dear,

And darling you will always be close and near